A detraction from whole-hearted pursuit of the spiritual path is the apparently low success rate. Success being the discovery of absolute self- definition. It is, however, the only task in life at which you can succeed. All else is subject to doubt. All else is subject to retrospective failure or meaninglessness – to the question of “did it really matter?” There is only one endeavor that matters – one whose result is not a permutation of the ego. Such is the discovery of our true nature. Compared to that, all else is guarenteed failure.
Your elegant arguments to justify your lifestyle are nothing compared to the depths that await discovery within you. From these depths come your longing. Honesty will open the way.